THE PAST:
Oh God! Oh God! Oh God! I can’t take this
anymore. This is the third night in a row when I can’t sleep at all. None of my
fads are working today…soothing music-check, dim light-check, comfortable room
temperature-check, 1199 deep breaths- double check, diary entries – triple
check…pages and pages and pages filled with us, our love, our memories. No
matter which page I open, happy or sad…my only reaction is to curl into a ball
and wait for the waves of pain to pass. I marvel my ability to face the outside
world with a dazzling smile. I am one heck of a tough person, in fact the
toughest person I know. Well! I have to be for I dared to love someone who
supposedly does not love me like I love him. I am reminded of the extremely
beautiful lines in ‘If Only’ – the movie.
‘In a relationship, there is always a
person who loves more, trusts more, does more – Oh God I wish it wasn’t me!!!’
Nailed it bro! Totally. So what do you do
with that…My piece of advice – Do not think of what you did to drive a person
away from you when all you wanted was to stay close, some people suffer from far sightedness, some
from near sightedness and your one – no sight at all. It’s not only love which
is blind, hatred is equally blind. Obstinacy is equally blind, stubbornness
even blinder and doubt blindest of them all.
THE PRESENT:
Dear love
Wow! As in Wow!! As in WOW!!!! You sure know how
to express yourself. You sure know how to make someone feel so special. The
surprise gift you found for me today is fab. I love the charm and the bracelet
too. I love the little book you tagged along. I love all the efforts you
undertake to make me feel like the luckiest person on the planet. I love the
way you close my laptop when it is too late in the night for me to continue
working. I love the way you always remember to set the alarm- whenever we need
to get up early. I love the way you try to help around in the kitchen or with
the kids. I love the way you always know when I need to hear something
reassuring from you. Whatever I do, your approval means the most to me. I love
the way you handle our finances, I love the way you fill our day with fun and
frolic. I love the way you are…I love…and I know nothing else.
Disclaimer: The
story I share with you all today; may or may not be true. For as a writer I am
certainly influenced by what I see around me. At the same time, I retain what I
call and known as artistic liberty.
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