THE PAST:
Dear Love,
I know you don’t trust me today, but I trust you and your decisions
completely. I know you hate me, but I feel nothing else but love for you. You
say that we are two different people. My dear all the people in this world are
different from each other. That is the beauty of it all; no two people can ever
be the same. Yet, they stay together.
You don’t know a single thing about me and yet you stand in judgement. The
one thing which you need to know is; I belong to you, only you. Even if I
shared a coffee with someone, I still belong to you. Even if I had a
conversation, I still belong to you. Even if I was seen talking to someone
else, I still belong to you. Even if you think there is something fishy about
it (by the way, there is nothing), I still belong to you. Even if you see me in
all the wrong lights today, I still completely, totally and in all honesty
belong to you. I don’t see anyone apart from you. I have eyes only for you. You
are killing me by your words, your accusations and false allegations. I told
you I have nothing to say to you, but I wanted to say – I am shattered beyond
recognition. You are killing me with your words, piece by piece. Word by
word…and yet my feelings stay the same. I still care for you, my love stays the
same.
How can we base a relationship on lies and deceit? Why I can’t share
anything and everything with you? Does that mean I will always have to be
conceited?
Are you blind? You read my whole diary the other day, found nothing other
than your presence. You held my hands in yours, yet can’t get hold of the
feelings I have for you? My heart refuses to believe that you are one of those
fleeting disloyal people, who always move on effortlessly from one relationship
to the next! I need you; I need to share your happiness and your pain too.
Where did you go, why did you go? Why are you so far from me?
THE PRESENT:
Today he came to my office to discuss something just as I was about to
leave. The deserted office was a perfect setting for his usual bantering to
continue. At the end of it, we both were laughing so hard that the issue he
came to discuss was completely forgotten. Anyways, it was just an excuse cooked
up to see each other. And then I returned the favor…Oh God!!! The happiness,
the bliss, the joy, the excitement of it all. Lovely…
We had a free flowing conversation and it felt good, shared the same cup of
coffee.
After our engagement:
We were at home celebrating our joy. Candles,streamers, decorations…the
whole nine yards. I cooked for him, with so much love. I am on top of the world
when I cook for him and I love the way he appreciates my cooking. I know sometimes,
the taste is a little off which he never tells me. All I see is total
acceptance, of me, my love, and my efforts. Love expressed in words, gestures
and actions. Today I want to confess to the whole world that we belong
together. Today as I hear him say ‘I love you’ I want to hear these words every
single day for the rest of my life. I love it that he always finds time to talk
to me, that he approaches me on his own. That whenever I am feeling not-so-ok,
he always assures me that everything is fine as long as we have each other. I
love that he dedicates songs to me and I love the feelings they convey. I love
it that he accepts all the gifts I bring for him, big or small with equal
fervour. I love it that he makes it a point to meet me whenever one of us has
to go out of town. I love that he is always there to pick me for office and
drops me home. I love that he confesses what he feels for me. I love that he
always takes me out on amazing dates. Places do not matter, his effort does. I
love the fact that he has openly accepted this relationship.
Disclaimer: The story I share with you all today; may or may not be true. For as a writer I am certainly influenced by what I see around me. At the same time, I retain what I call and known as artistic liberty.
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