Dear God
Sample this:
‘What happened today still has me reeling from shock. As if those days have
returned when he used to threaten me. Today he has delivered someone else’s
threat. It is needless to say it’s hers. Gosh the audacity of this woman!’
OK God, confrontation is what they want then
confrontation it is! I am in a war zone now and there is no turning back. That
was what I was thinking few days back. But that day did not come. For she chose
to diffuse the situation by her usual cunning. The confrontation I was waiting
for never came.
How I wish someone asked me to clarify the facts
instead of weaving tall tales about me! But I don’t think it is going to happen
in this lifetime.
I had a tough few months, God. Just when I was
able to realign my focus this had to happen. It is all up to me now. I have to
prove my mettle in the tasks at hand and just stay out of the clutches of
official-looking yet personal in nature outbursts and confrontations.
By the way, the way You chose to teach me the ways
of Your world is slightly weird, don’t You think? Why don’t You keep me on a
straight no-nonsense path of professional and personal isolation? You have to
put me in the line of fire always! Believe me God I would do anything to stay
out of the limelight.
Yet here I am.
They say You chose Your strongest children to
endure Your most difficult tests. But frankly, the endurance grid You chose for
me is wearing me out now. For once in my life, I want to be ordinary and weak.
I have been tried for too long, God. Cut me some slack, please.
PS: I leave it all to You, God. Expose her.
