Corporate Blues

Dear God

Sample this:

There is a big inaugural function with chairs and mic and all the shenanigans. The irony – the chairs are empty. There is hardly any person present on the field where we have gathered. I stand alone.

My work has never been more difficult to me. One whole year has passed and the people are still the same. No one knows how we arrange things from scratch. All they do is question my methods and stop my progress. I have been living a nightmare these past few months. Being a woman, it is never easy to have a voice. Now it is incredibly difficult.

My higher ups keep questioning me – why do you always have to work alone? Ahem! Aside for the fact that I already asked for help and did not get it. I had no option but to surge ahead. I don’t know why people hate accomplished women so much. I did not get this job to look pretty and stand aside smiling. I have to be out there in the field. My colleagues question my integrity and my work is the only way I can answer it. Meticulously planned projects are being killed in the bud. Already executed ones are hanging for dear life because of no reason.

It is hard to encounter such hostility and remain sane all the time. When working with a large crowd, the possibilities of things going wrong are endless. Kudos to my team who worked wonders on this one. We pulled it off really well.

But when the time comes to getting their rightful dues, we are being pushed aside by a horde of credit mongrels. What do we do? Vested interests and personal rivalries come together to ruin all my great accomplishments. I feel like throwing in the towel and just go along with everything.

God, please show me the path ahead.