Dear God
Sample this:
Jo ladki kisi ko apni gadi me bitha ke ghuma sakti hai uske charitr ka koi
bharosa nahin. Jo kisi se der raat phone par baat kar sakti hai wo n jane kya
kya karti hogi. Jis ladki ke ghar mein uska koi guardian maujud nahin uske
yahan aane jane walon ki list yaqinan lambi hogi hi.
Suddenly giving lift to an elderly senior walking past is a grave mistake
and a question mark on my character. Lost in a hoard of accusations being flung
at me left, right and centre I am once again the centre of attraction of the
gossip mongrels. This time it is giving lift… who knew one random act of
kindness could be so perceived or offering a cup of tea could wreak such havoc.
I have only myself to blame God. The mistake is all mine.
I loved too much, trusted blindly and had immense faith in the goodness of
people. My heart is breaking God but I have braced myself for the worst. This
time I am prepared to accept what follows even if it is seeing you with someone
else. I know that I have ceased to be of use to you now and it is inevitable
that you gravitate to someone who is.
God why did You do this to me? Why you gave me courage to face so much so
gracefully? But out of all that has happened to me this is by far the worst. I
have faced Your world heads on many times but this will be my last battle. I
have no further courage to go on. I just want to quit now.
I promise You God I will stop believing in friendship, love, loyalty and
all the fine feelings of the world. They are not meant for a person like me. My
past experiences are always going to haunt and destroy my present. Why did You
have to do this though? You knew his thinking and You knew mine. Yet You chose
to bring us both together! Why?
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