The Warrior Princess

 

Dear God

Sample this :

Hi! My name is Bhavana ‘Nothing seems to work anymore’ Sagar.

NOTHING SEEMS TO WORK seems to be my middle name these days God.

Thank You for a birthday surrounded by friends and family. Actually, just dad and a few children and an amazing evening with two of my besties. A welcome surprise which I arranged for myself as always. Work issues are yet to be resolved and so far, nothing seems to work. I am not so sure how to go about achieving what I want. This is an unexpected setback in my otherwise mundane life.

It is amazing how we go about life assuming everything will always be as it is now and Wham!! In my case double WHAM if you count whatever I have in the name of a relationship. Sometimes in life we have to pull the plug on something which is not working out anyhow.

The funny thing is when I do so someone is always there to re-block it and not let me escape. I have been through so many permutations combinations for a solution that I no longer know what I need to do anymore.

What the fuck do these people even want? What the heck do I need to do? Aside for post mortem of my situations and deep endless criticism of my ways (!) I have so far achieved nothing.

It is one of your Christmas miracles that I still have my sanity and my sense of humour intact. Otherwise, I would be one grumpy little bag of mean remarks. Thank You for that too. In the immortal words of Jahangir Khan from Dear Zindagi ‘Sirf difficult option option nhi hota hai. Kabhi kabhi easy option bhi option hota hai kyunki wo easy hai.’

Tell me one thing God… Why do I always land in soups no matter how far I take myself. No one has any idea of my journey yet everyone seems to know my destination.

Leaving it to You has so far never yielded any solutions God.

Please get me out of this soup that my life has become. I want a fresh start, a new beginning and just bid adieu to all this rotting hell.