Corporate Blues: Picking up the pieces

 Dear God 

So sometimes you accept your fate and move on!! Moving on from my previous predicament I ended up here... away from both my janmbhoomi and karmbhoomi. Everything just fell in place like the missing pieces of a puzzle coming together and now.... 

Within a very short time I have my place in the corporate world. My lost months taught me so many lessons... lessons I will always remember. 

Picking up the pieces of my situation, landing in this land unknown, making new friends and missing my fur babies like hell.

How does this happen God? How do I cope? Earlier when I moved, I had nothing but only bags to carry. Now I will have to pick up my whole grihasthi on my head and Heave Ho!! To this land of fish curry and rice.

Moving on is difficult as it is and now I have loss of people to cope too. I lost Sunita Aunty to an unknown illness yesterday. I just could not bear the thought that I will never see that smiling face again…. She will not call me Gudiya again and once again I am left in a void which will remain forever.

8 years have passed since I knew her and now….

Now I am here in an unknown land. I have a fresh set of predicaments to go through now. Hostel life is not very bad but here its total hell. The filth, the dirt, the mismanagement…

And when I want to attract the attention of the management towards it, the result of my efforts to improve the system haunt me. All I know is I can’t continue in this situation for long…

The recovery is well within my reach though!! Things will soon fall in place.

No room for self doubt

Dearest God

So my past life crimes have caught up to me...and that perhaps is the reason for all my predicament. Hmm...I see. Is it really that simple God? One life going so well no matter what they do ..and one down in the gutters. Only because of the past life. What happened to bygones be bygones? Or perhaps giving every single soul a chance to repent and reform. No such chance...eh. So only because of my past life I am suffering in this one? If this rings true, does it mean I have to stop all efforts to overcome my troubles. Give up the struggle and just passively face whatever fresh hell is in store for me? Or does it mean rely on fate with folded hands and just hope that everything will eventually be better as soon as the past is avenged!

No God, a big fat and firm NO!!!!!

Any karma good or bad should be avenged in the same life itself; no matter how grave the crime is. Nah? Otherwise I might lose interest in doing good…

My book of deeds is full of selfless acts and yet time and again I suffer!!

And then I think! ‘To each their own’ Even though my life is difficult and full of struggles, I am here for giving it my best shot. So many people do not have what I do. Ergo more power to me and You too.

You know what? I don’t care what my past life was, I have this one and it is enough. No matter why I am suffering today, I am sure I will make things better by my constant efforts. Till date, only my hard work kept me afloat and even now, it is this which will help me sail through.

I know I am taking a very big risk by doing this God. This risk though, is better than doing nothing.

This past life thing is nothing but a lame excuse per say. For those who are too tired or lazy to change their life. For those who are powerless and cannot stop people from taking opportunities to exploit their power, position, money etc.

So no matter what everyone says or does, I am here putting in my best efforts. Coz God, I have no room for self doubt. Absolutely none.

Coz like me, some people have to carve ways out of hell holes entirely on their own.