Dear God
जिंदगी मौत एक जैसी थी, लम्हा लम्हा मगर जिया हमने
अब जो करना है तुमको करना है, हमसे जो बन पड़ा किया हमने
Separations are difficult, to say the least. This
transition is the most difficult one I have ever come across. God, I have
travelled far and wide in search of love and I am yet to find it. I have a
desire to meet you now, my Maker. But I know my time on your earth is not up
yet. I have a really long life ahead of me. I have to go through the motions
just like everyone else. God, I am not sure of the path from this moment
onwards. I have complete faith in You and with that faith I will take one step
at a time. What happened yesterday was unexpected but I know You may have a
plan in place for me. I don’t know if my loveless life and overbearing
personality was a part of Your plan all along. But I am sure of one thing now.
No one knows me in and out. People have made some pretty wild guesses but no
one comes close.
God, courage is all I pray for. Courage to accept the
challenges You have thrown my way. Courage to be peaceful in times of this
turmoil. Courage to face my life alone, unaccompanied. Now people have been
jumping with the idea of marriage left, right and centre. You know I lost my
faith in that institution a long time back. When I see marriages being fixed
like business deals, I simply can’t believe the idea of soulmates being joined
in an unbreakable bond. Breach of contract seems more important than breach of
faith here. How can a bond so sweet be based on superficial things like money,
gifts and background? Personality traits and story of life is still missing
from the bio-data in marriages.
Everyone around me looks for a more profitable deal and I
am one of the lost causes. Too enlightened, too outspoken, too independent and
too overpowering. I promise to You I am not one to wallow in self-pity. Pity is
one thing I do not seek. I will continue to be as merciless as possible with
me. Trusting with abandon is one of my many vices.
Thank You for this opportunity to flex my strength. Love
You God.
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