Leap of faith

Dear God

मेरे जज़्बात का तू साज नहीं सुन सकता, क्यूँ मेरे प्यार की आवाज़ नहीं सुन सकता

बंद होठों से जो इक बात कही थी मैंने, तुझको अब तक मेरी उस बात का एहसास नहीं

Same mistake again! One slip of tongue and we are back on warpath. Worse still, he was here and refused to even let me know. You know what makes it unbearable? The other woman! One woman whose presence in his life haunts me, drives me mad, torments me to the point of delusion and violence. Why? You might ask.

Sixth sense…this damsel is never in distress God. She only pretends! I am afraid for him. Afraid for the faith he placed in her. Afraid of the rapport they share, afraid of the rumors about them. I am afraid of the fact that even marriage could not put a stop to her shenanigans. ‘Just Friends’ is a much abused word God. You bear witness to so many failed relationships where people refused to part ways. ‘Friends’ is the word which they use to disguise their horrid tales of disloyalty to their partners.

Kill me, God. I don’t want to bear witness to this. Else drive her away for good. Open his eyes and make him see the reality for once. I have never felt this antagonized to anyone. Why only her?

He is a better human being than most of the people, but he is still human. I want to believe the best of him. I believe him. But my past haunts me…

Yet here I am. I decided to take a leap of faith. I trust You God and I trust him. I believe You have my best interests at heart and one of these days, I will have the peace I miss right now. Amen.

Disclaimer: The story I share with you all today; may or may not be true. For as a writer I am certainly influenced by what I see around me. At the same time, I retain what I call and known as artistic liberty.